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30 Days of Truth.. Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.

Can I say God?

I have this love/hate relationship with organized religion.  I have a very low tolerance for hypocritical people.  I don’t want to be around people who ever act like they are better than I am. I don’t want to leave church, in tears, for the rest of my Sunday.

That doesn’t seem very spiritual, to me, and its certainly not savoring any type of Sabbath.

With that said, I do believe in God.

I could never go live in an Ashram, like Elizabeth Gilbert, in Eat, Pray, Love, mostly because I’m too disabled to spend so much time on the floor, on my knees, or in solitude.  I find it hard to meditate, too.  My mind wanders and then I feel guilty.

Religion is full of feeling guilty and that disturbs me.

I do seek Spiritual things. I read Spiritual things.  I have read the Bible.  I’m just not fit into the right church mold type of mentality.

I’ve raised my children to be very devout.  They are not perfect.  But, they believe, and that is important to me. They know right from wrong, regardless of my journey.

I find it hard to believe that I’m going to go to hell for drinking a cup of coffee and I’m tired of the Mormon guilt associated with it.

I find it easy to study other very serious religions and have a blog dedicated to those studies because I can comprehend most of it.  Then there is usually something hoaky thrown in that blows my whole high.

I come from a long line of LDS believers, on my mother’s mother’s side, and as a family historian, I’m blessed with their research.  But I think the times have changed and the church is not today, what it was 160 years ago.  I still feel that my integrity was built for me by those ancestors that believed so much and sacrificed so much.  Even those that walked across the country to Utah.  I can’t imagine facing the challenges they had t0 face and making the choices they had to make.

I feel blessed to have the knowledge that I do have.  I will continue to seek after Elizabeth Gilbert, Marianne Williamson, Linda Eyre, Sarah Ban Breathnach, Camille Fronk Olson, and Joanna Weaver, among many others.

I’ll leave you with the best inspiration I repeat many times a month.. Elizabeth Gilbert’s TED Talk.


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