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Believe in Miracles
My heat and soul are full.. my eyes filled with tears.. of joy. My spirits are lifted tonight.. there is light under the tunnel. I’ll share a little when things progress.. just know this.. People should be more appreciated.. pay it forward.. to everyone. I won’t be missing the ALS walks next year and maybe can go to many others. Wonderful for me as they are so important. Life is great. God is Miraculous.. Pray more. Hope more. Love more. Believe.. … Read entire article »
Filed under: ALS, family and friends, Featured, Forever and One More Day, Inspiration, Stand For Something, Unexpectations
Living withing Reach
I’ve considered over and over if I should write this post. I’ve been giving a lot about my personal life away, lately, for the sake of honesty and integrity in blogging and hoping that others out there don’t think that they are alone, in any way. I live within reach. This means that everything I may need or want has to be within reach of me. I fell off the bed, the other night, trying to reach for something. I yelled “help” for over an hour, before someone in my house, woke up for other reasons and could hear me. Helping me up was torture and only added to my pain, but I’m okay. But, this only re-enforces the idea of living within reach.. Except for when I was on the floor I’m in … Read entire article »
Filed under: Creative Chaos, Creative Domestication, depression, Featured, Health/Nutrition, Unexpectations
OCD trapped in a disabled body
I have always had obsessive compulsive tendencies in my home and environment. Things had to have a place and be in their place. Its like living company ready, all the time. I still wish I could do that. But, I can’t. My body is too broken and my mind won’t stop this OCD. I, often, hurt myself trying to fix things so they are just how they should be and all that does is put me into bed a few extra days that I could have had to do something fulfilling If you have or know someone who has OCD tendencies, can you imagine having a disabled broken body? Its a living nightmare to not be able to do stupid little things that bug you, or are out of place, that only you care … Read entire article »
Filed under: Feeding the Needz, Health/Nutrition, Rant, Unexpectations
Miss you Dad
“Oh, when we are journeying through the murky night and the dark woods of affliction and sorrow, it is something to find here and there a spray broken, or a leafy stem bent down with the tread of His foot and the brush of His hand as He passed; and to remember that the path He trod He has hallowed, and thus to find lingering fragrance and hidden strength in the remembrance of Him as “in all points tempted like as we are,” bearing grief for us, bearing grief with us, bearing grief like us.” ~ Alexander MacLaren Read more: http://www.whatchristianswanttoknow.com/bible-verses-for-bereavement-10-helpful-scripture-quotes/#ixzz1oDYXLdce I’ve decided since I can’t walk the ALS walks, this month.. I’m going to go sit at the cemetery for a while, instead. I want to keep May private for my … Read entire article »
Filed under: ALS, depression, family and friends, Forever and One More Day, Inspiration, Stand For Something
I’m a depressed adult born of a depressed adult
For the most part, I don’t write about my depression. I only try to keep this blog full of the good times. Hence the emptiness in the last year or two. Something happened to me two weeks ago, though. I found me again. That’s the only way I can describe it. I could set aside the war torn, tossed and turned life I’ve lived, and think of things to write about again. A battle emerged on my Facebook page, the other night, and my “grandmother” said something about stepping back and re-evaluating how I felt. I deleted all the posts related to this entanglement. For the first time I saw and realized that many read and don’t comment. I realized they were there. I wished someone a Happy Birthday and in their Thank-you, they … Read entire article »
Filed under: Creative Chaos, depression, Featured, Stand For Something
Pharmaceutical Wars
I have a new long term extended release medication. Its controlled. I’m not allowed to get it filled until the day before or the day you run out of the current medication. Guess what, though? (Almost had it hijacked cuz I couldn’t pee.. in the cup) CVS doesn’t have it and won’t have it, by order, for 2-3 days. None in the area have it. Umm.. that’s so unacceptable. Make me wait until the last minute and then make me go without. That’s health care for you. Any non controlled medication must be faxed into the insurance company to be mail ordered. Last month, one of my pain medications was increased to 6mg, from 4mg. I called the pharmacy to get a refill ordered. They never filled. I went back to the doctor, the next month … Read entire article »
Filed under: Creative Chaos, Health/Nutrition, Stand For Something
Digital Tab Hell – Finding my Tribe – Within Sisters in Bloom
I’ve been fishing blogz. This is like being a fisher of men (women mostly.) I’m trying, desperately to find my tribe and the blogz I’ve bee reading have been teaching me so much about me, and my life and my spirit.. and the spiritual being I want to return to being. So, this may get a little sappy for my regular readers.. but here I am.. and this is what is going on right now: Of course, Sisters in Bloom started this as I started to read the blogs of those contributors. Wonderful women who lay their hearts out for us to read their souls.. First, Meet Jessica and her sweet family who hail, originally, from my home-town in San Diego. I have so much to learn from Jennifer, at You are My … Read entire article »
Filed under: Creative Domestication, Featured, Feeding the Needz, Inspiration, Linky Love, Simple Abundance, Stand For Something, Unexpectations
I’m digitally inept
If I was writing on paper for a paper distribution, like a newpaper or newsletter, I’d get so much more accomplished. Especially pretty paper. As it isl , I have a gazillion tabs open trying to put them into a congruent fashion into a post. What is wtong with me:? … Read entire article »
Filed under: Creative Chaos, Everyday Nothing, Unexpectations
All in the Life of CarolinaDreamz
Lately, everyday, I want to climb under the covers and hide until it ends. Or go outside or into a closet and scream. (make sure you are able to utter “i’m okay” to the minions, that really need you when you are on the phone or on the commode. If you do this. I am not liable for your own decisions. :) ) For those familiar, its a big Fibro hell. So in the recent past, I’ve survived these: I dropped a whole mostly full bottle of Frappacciino, in the dark,around 5:30am. This, of course in in a space between the wall and heavy furniture (and the bed) so I can’t get to it to clean it up. (Oh, I forgot to tell you the lid came off and the stuff gushed like … Read entire article »
Filed under: Feeding the Needz, Health/Nutrition, LowCountry, Rant, Stand For Something
Finding My New Tribe
I’ve been lost. I was born into a family and raised by a village. But after you grow up, you have to surround yourselves with those that make you feel good and help you put one foot in front of the other. This is your tribe. I realized I’ve lost my tribe. American journalist and writer Jane Howard is credited with the following quote: “Call it a clan, call it a network, call it a tribe, call it a family. Whatever you call it, whoever you are, you need one.” I found these 12 steps important. As I look to find a new tribe, I’ve come across many new things: Sisters in Bloom is a Christian Woman Community. (in)courage has a new (in)RL (In real life) and there is a group in Mt Pleasant/Charleston. I don’t … Read entire article »
Filed under: Creative Chaos, family and friends, LowCountry, Stand For Something
Identity Crisis
Could I have had an Identity Crises? Is an Identity Crisis what one experiences when they lose a parent? Is losing someone you value, so much, so much to bear that one could lose the idea of their identity? Maybe, as my friend, said I was having an identity crisis, i finally felt like I knew what had been happening to me. As the train rushed towards me and I jumped off the track.. Here I am. Here I am. HERE I AM. So many things are really going on.. And I promise to tell you about them. A simple thing to share is my new friend, Roku ON My Roku this week: Lost 3:2 (Girlie is a new Lostee and I’m riding with her.) and Bones 1:4 (Temperance? Seeley? Seriously?). Have you ever had an identity … Read entire article »
Filed under: Feeding the Needz, Inspiration, Stand For Something, Unexpectations
Have you seen the commercial about the lady on the laying on the couch in the mall?
This particular commercial about the lady on the red couch in the middle of the mall is about migraines and 1/2 living. I have to relate this situation and peek at how my life is. I’m holding down my couch. I can see the Endo in the end of January, and I made the appointment in October. Now, new problem and I’m seriously considering a complete hysterectomy like my hematologist wants. This health is just getting to the point of ridiculous. I’m the one on the red couch.. think of me when you see it. Life is moving around me. Well, what more can I say? The only test that came back abnormal was my upper high cholesterol. The HDL? What a zoo. … Read entire article »
Filed under: Creative Chaos, diet, Health/Nutrition, Rant
Tricare and Blue Cross are being banned from Walgreens RX in 2012
A few months ago, my daughter had to sign a petition, at Walgreens to save her ability to keep using Walgreens for her prescription needs. Last week, I was informed, over the phone and then, again, this afternoon, at the pharmacy.. Many insurance companies are not going to allow us to use the major pharmacies in the near future. Right now, I can fill two maintenance medications locally. Then I have to get a 90 day prescription and use the insurance company’s pharmacy.. When mistakes happen, which just recently happened to me, we are stuck with 90 days worth of a useless product or not enough after you’ve paid your bill. Its all a mess and only going to get worse. God Bless America. … Read entire article »
Filed under: Creative Chaos, Everyday Nothing, Feeding the Needz, politics and religion
Laughing at my Bucket List
July 2010 and today are so drastically different. I can’t say I can come up with 100 things like that again and it was fun and sad to read. Most of my friends I planned to do things with I don’t even speak to anymore. #42 hits too personal to me. I chatted on FB with him, recently. He’s happily married and I doubt he’d ever take me to fulfill his promise. I was just over pleased he spoke to me and doesn’t hate me anymore. I hurt him tremendously as a very young girl. I’m sorry for all the pain I caused him and I hope he knows it. You never forget your first love.. Ron, you still amaze me. Strong and True. and that’s … Read entire article »
Filed under: family and friends, Feeding the Needz, Inspiration, Stand For Something
Strike Three – You’re Out!
My medical doctor has a serious problem. I have a serious problem because of it. I’m out of options of where to go for primary care so I’m avoiding primary care. First Strike: My medical doctor had me sign a contract that said I would only get my Ambien from him and only at CVS pharmacy near my home. When I called for a refill and waited three or four days for it to be called in, I happened to send my son to the Walgreens to get some other prescriptions, for me… and guess what else he brought home? My Ambien. Who broke that contract? Strike Two: My insurance company only allows two months of maintenance medications at my local pharmacy of choice and then I must get a … Read entire article »
Filed under: Creative Chaos
Embrace Vulnerability
Its okay to be vulnerable. Its okay to show who I really am. Its okay to be afraid, and get positive about it. I can become who I want to be. … Read entire article »
Filed under: Creative Chaos, Featured, Feeding the Needz, Stand For Something
An 800 pound Gorilla wants to pee in my Cheerios
The best way to explain it is to copy/paste the emails to you, removing all the guilty party logos, names, and email addresses. Then you tell me what you think. First, you’ve heard of Collected.info right? Collected.info is a Public Feed Reader. I enjoy gathering my Feeds to read there, so I can easily categorize and read for the curating I do. I made a mistake, though. I decided to make a genealogy one and name is after my genealogy site .com and well, umm, that might just make this an dirtier pee than I’m thinking, right now. Okay, here we go: http://familyhugz.collected.info/ Hello Heidi (name deleted to protect the gorilla) here from (name deleted to protect the gorilla). I’ve had several inquiries via email this morning about the feeds at Family Hugz.)(** note ** … Read entire article »
Filed under: Blog Admin, Creative Chaos, Featured, Rant, Stand For Something
You Must See These – Its time to be disgusted
You’ve heard about how you should see Food, Inc. And you should. You should also add SuperSize Me to that list of Must See’s. But I just finished watching King Corn and if you have Netflix, you should go watch it now. I’m amazed. I’m not sure any food is all that great for us anymore. We are killing ourselves one sip and bite at a time and only we can do something about this. I stopped eating fast food a long time ago. I’m an avid food label reader. I live with others who demand foods i would never buy.. but they are in my refrigerator. I <3 Dr. Pepper. I can live on Pepsi Throwback from Publix until I can switch off the whole soda bandwagon. I’m not there, yet. But … Read entire article »
Filed under: diet, Featured, Foodie Frenzy, Health/Nutrition, Mercury, Stand For Something
My Opinion on the matter at hand..
So Osama Bin Laden is dead. Our Mission is accomplished. Time to leave Afghanistan and Pakistan. We need those troops home to defend us against those that loved Osama and hate us. Stay in Iraq like we stayed in Korea. Our troops are just targets now. We are all targets now. I’m impressed that Obama spoke like we all should be 912′ers. God Bless America. Thank you to our brave Troops. Never forget. Don’t cheer and shoot guns like they did when our towers were falling. Light a candle. Remember. … Read entire article »
Filed under: Feeding the Needz, politics and religion, Stand For Something, Unexpectations
Sangaree BiLo Gets a FaceLift
We’ve often referred to “my BiLo” in a semi-negative way. Its just wasn’t up to the fashions of Moncks Corner or Hanahan and it was depressing. This is the only neighborhood grocery store that survived when our Wally World went Super. I’m proud to announce (and they aren’t giving me a thing to say this) that they are having a Grand Opening on May 4, 2011. The store is beautiful. New floors, new produce department, new machines. I’m so very impressed. Oh and they got a facelift on the outside, too. Now “My BiLo” isn’t a dreadful thing to say. (I hope complaining to corporate last year didn’t get anyone fired. shshshs we’ll just be quiet about this, ok?) The only downer, the booklet they sent has a … Read entire article »
Filed under: Creative Domestication, Foodie Frenzy, Unexpectations
Update from California
Mom is going in, this morning, for another CT. They suspect another intestinal blockage. She was lucky to survive the last without a colostomy.. She’s going to call me after the CT to tell me if she is going back into surgery. I’ll keep you posted as to what is new with that and my where-abouts. I may be headed back to California. Believing in Blessingz, Heidi … Read entire article »
Filed under: family and friends
I <3 Egypt – “The Power of the People..”
Filed under: Featured, Feeding the Needz, politics and religion, Stand For Something
Friday Five – Top Evernote Links – Top Twitter Favorites
My Top Five Evernote Links this week: Chris Brogan takes on Social Media Etiquette. This is a great post that anyone interested in Social Media should read. Marelisa shares 32 Small Ways to Change the World. My favorite is number 29. Seed pills excite me, too! Heatlh Impact New Daily has shared an interesting post about Saturate Fats, Cholesterol in the brain, relating Alzheimers, Parkinsons, and ALS, in the name of Coconut Oil. I don’t know how much of this is marketing for coconut oil. But I found the article fascinating. Margie Clayman shared 1 month, 30 blogging action items. Erica Says has a great post to teach the difference between categories and tags. I wish I had read this when I first started blogging. My Top Five Favorties on Twitter, this week “Folks, if you can’t … Read entire article »
Filed under: ALS, Feeding the Needz, Linky Love
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