Entries tagged with "mourning" | Simply Carolina Dreamz

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Identity Crisis

February 9th, 2012 | Add a Comment

Could I have had an Identity Crises? Is an Identity Crisis what one experiences when they lose a parent? Is losing someone you value, so much, so much to bear that one could lose the idea of their identity? Maybe, as my friend, said I was having an identity crisis, i finally felt like I knew what had been happening to me. As the train rushed towards me and I jumped off the track.. Here I am. Here I am. HERE I AM. So many things are really going on.. And I promise to tell you about them. A simple thing to share is my new friend, Roku ON My Roku this week: Lost 3:2 (Girlie is a new Lostee and I’m riding with her.) and Bones 1:4 (Temperance? Seeley? Seriously?). Have you ever had an identity … Read entire article »

Filed under: Feeding the Needz, Inspiration, Stand For Something, Unexpectations

30 Days of Truth.. Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough a** days. (write a letter.)

October 22nd, 2010 | 2 Comments

This challenge is very difficult for me because I believe Music is Life. Every room in a home deserves a different genre.. just as every mood does. There isn’t much, in the music industry that I don’t appreciate on some level. I could write Colin Raye about “Love Me” getting me through my grandmother’s death and all the major changes in my life, that had to happen, in 1991. I could write to Alabama about how several of there songs built me into who I am today, but I think that would freak my heart out, too much. I could write to Reba McEntire, because my world has evolved through some of her songs. I could write to Tanya Tucker about “Strong Enough to Bend.” Or to Steve Wariner about “The Weekend.” but … Read entire article »

Filed under: 30 Days of Truth, Inspiration

I have had many dad’s in this lifetime.

August 25th, 2010 | Add a Comment

“Dad” is a very special word, to me. I met my biological dad when I was 18. Michael. We buried him last year. I spent quite a bit of my young childhood with a step-father, I called, “daddy.” Kenny. In my youth, I had my grandfather and a special proxy dad, for father/daughter activities, camp-outs, or dances. Phil Allison I have had two fathers-in-law that I referred to or called “dad,” too. Mel and Bryan. My mom had some special boyfriend’s, in her world, that treated me like a dad. Jimmy and Wayne. I have a current step-dad, that treats me like a dad. Ernie And, just recently, thanks to Google, I’m in touch with a man who helped to raise me from when I was a baby until I was a toddler. I consider … Read entire article »

Filed under: Forever and One More Day, Unexpectations

I’m always gonna wanna make it move..

August 1st, 2010 | Add a Comment

When one loses a parent, life seems to go into an unrecognizable mode, for a while. Some days you don’t know if you’ll ever feel 1/2 normal again. It has taken me just over a year to be able to function, at full capacity, again. Amazingly, in that year, I’m not sure how I accomplished anything. I did do the best thing I could do, for myself. I went back to the pyschiatrist. It was my chance to just focus on me and work on climbing back into the world I once could run through. I will always be saddened, that my dad chose to hide his illness from me. I will always feel that I lost my chance to really show him that I could be a successful daughter. All I … Read entire article »

Filed under: Forever and One More Day, Inspiration, Unexpectations